better

things r improving...
D did finall remember...n tried to make up for everything... i made it very clear dat i refuse to take shit...
as for him....spoke to him like thursday nite den friday noon...
things r gettin better...n ya not to forget...HOTTER!!!
he thinks am mad to wanna keep STUFF
jss kiddin....more later

hell with it...

yeah jst forgot to mention....Ds aussie frnd refused to tell me y he made that statement....
ws scared of betrayin his frnd.... n i kinda understand dat too...
but wt cud it b ...
all dis is chewin me apart..
newayz will let u knw wen i fgure out....
its not like it maters or like sob sob..
but like gggrrrrrrrrrrr

lifes useless....endless....

so much has changed....
so many ppl hav changed....
11 april..ie yesterday ws my bday......
can u believe it,D even forgot to wish....
dats wt to expect.... it is now officially the beginning of the very end....
newayz i had 8 hours of tuition yesterday too...den chilled at home...
so many ppl came.....
priyanka,tanvi,chacha,chachi,mudita maam,rolli,mauli, minu,sonia n monica didi,dhriti, manju aunty, atul uncle,mini aunty, sumit, shilpa,tanya n all
sahil, manisha, chinmay,harish,devika, rachna meghna, dyuti, radhika, chotte nana n nani, mala aunty n family, sahils ma, vikas,poonam aunty all called.
aakshi,tanya khullar,priya,ankitojha msgd...
u must b wunderin y i am listin down...its so dat i remember to wish bak
neways ws surprised as many who i expected didnt call :-S like D, sankalp,avinash,ankit blah blah blah...

n ya lst n bitara...man hectic... sumtimes its like.....crap law n chill... but neah cnt afford to do dat
newayz letz c...
oh ya forgot to mention bout my conversation with Ds aussie frnd....
he wudnt temme y he said i shud break up... but insisted dat i shud....dat it ws gud for both to jss b frnds.....
all dis accumalates into bigger chaos basically....
was talking to "DS" bout it n even she cudnt figure out....
i dono whether i shud tell Ds n thus interfere in his n ausiie frnds frndship...or jss maintain status quo... or do sumting bout it...
man... dis post is turnin out to b endless.......
so ctch u later....
tc

2nd to 10th april....marathon......

havnt written in a week man...
been so busy....
like with classes for law n ya been freakin out...
met up with snah this week....
shes changed.....for the better...
man n ya... da whole wurld smokes...
manu c....Ds aussie boy...snah....every1 i meet...
n ya lst is fun... especially da breaks:P
newayz went out with mom to south ex n fab india.... ws rokin....
went to ansal too....with bro.....
the navratras started yesterday.... n my bday falls in btw...but like dat matters...
will fast newayz i guess.... mom n all think i am mad....
this is turnin out to b one long post......

n ya fell sik on wednesday.... ws kinda sucky... felt guidy for the first time....
n ya da bus btw srinagar n muzafarabad started.... real cool.... saw da cross over on tv...
n ya i didnt go for udays party....n m chilled bout dat.....
did go for dinner dat day tho with mini aunty n all....
joined bitara...its pretty neat... tho every1 knws everything
n ya sanjay mamus in town....scary...

n ya yesterday...i met Ds aussie boy..... hes in town.... we went to TGIF...
n ya he spoke bout his differences with D.... but yeah he told me to jst b frnds.....
n said dat deb wsnt nice n wt i thought he ws....dat ws scary...
dono who to talk to bout dis..... dnt wanna nt tell deb...but cnt tell either.... :-s
lets c...

i did call up" DS".... but didnt discuss this at all...didnt feel like tellin her even....tho i had caled her with the intention of tellin...
never mind my insanity....
tomorrow is my BDAY.....yeah...
ws lukin forward to it....till i gt to knw deres 6 hrs of classes...
lets c wt hpns...will write later....am exhausted..........plan to get in sum sleep ....havnt slept much since da boards finished...nw isnt dat weird....its suppose to b da opposite way:P

free

was the first day of peace after the board exams man....
jst chilled completely.....at janpath den pallika...
n ya....did away with muaaah buks.....
n ya as for anchal.... i hav to say she is surely a ****
newayz freedom rox...
n ya so does rodeo in cp...went dere after ages....
n ya it was awzum.... much improved.....
n ya plan to fiiinnnaallly c meet the fockers..

just....

In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything because your eyes are covered up by tears! You are constantly hurt and depressed... No one seems to understand how you feel because everyone is scared to get close to you... You long to be able to reach out and tell someone everything, and all of your problems... But you have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to want to hear what you have to say. You've been hurt many times that you don't seem to have any tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an endless river flowing... You've started to hide and bottle up all or your problems and feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go away... You want company, but at the same time, you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your room where you can just be alone and try to throw away all of your aching pains. You're dark and mysterious and people like you for that reason. Even if you think you're all by yourself in the dark, someone is always there with you. Your special someone wants to admit and show their feelings towards you, but they're afraid of how you'll take it.

friends....

friend...a species still unknown to me...it isn't tht i hvn't had pals over the years...far from it...i hv had quite a circle of friends...but somehow, i hvn't yet considered anyone my "best" friend...best in the sense - someone who i could trust blindly and someone i could share all my secrets and insecurities with...someone i would never want to part with...there are many reasons for this...i don't forget easily...both good and bad deeds...i try my best to repay all my debts...can't let go of a grudge, once i develop it...am too calculating...it's hard for me to change my opinion about someone...my first impression is usually the final too...somehow, i don't want to be associated with my past...i'd rather not meet my friends from school...don't know why, but the mere thought of this makes me feel uncomfortable...similarly, once i get out of college, i don't think meeting my college friends will be a very pleasing experience for me...hv the habit of hurting all those who are close to me in any way...those who stay are the brave ones but why the hell should anyone stand all the tantrums i put up...will harp about making friends but will shoo away neone who tries to be one..but yet, hoping against hope...i sometimes think...thr will be someone who'll befriend me in spite of all my shortcomings...who'll understand me for what i really am...i'm still waiting...Friendship grows in quiet ways,A helpful deed, a thoughtful phrase,An outstretched hand, a touch, a smile,A silent moment shared awhile,Beneath blue skies, thru rainy days,True friendship grows in quite ways.

last board

three years today..... can anyone believe dat... not me!!!!
newayz had my last board exam today.... ws sucky... left 8 markz....
n ya i did call him up.....
he ws first rude den extra sweet...
my deadline has been set though....its da end of may.... wt da hell...
how will it ever happen??
newayz boards over.....
hhahahahahhahahaha
chill....
relllaaxx.x....
n hav fun...