holi.......

today ws holi.... for those who dnt knw...the festival of colors....
ws awzuumm
everyone ws drenched ...n ya.... high:P
newayz cumin to the more serious thing.... i decided to call him up last nite..
n on his insistance i called immediately...only to b told to call 10 mins later...
wt the fuk...wen i called later...he ws on the phone.... for the first time in my life i jst decided dat ws it.... said gudnite n switched off the fone......
n yeah am proud of dis new avatar of mine :-)
newayz i did greet him today...but no response...
tho i had fun....so who cares...

wt da hell????

i jus dont get....
i do like the man..... or mayb i dnt....
its cheap....the way he wants to know everything...but tell nothin...
i cud kik him
i know i do...but donno y...its killin me.....

is constant argument.... n den all pure sweetness wen u talk...luv?
do i want it this way?
did i want it this way?
shud it b different.....?
letz c......
for now....iam not giving in..... i too am moody....
n yeah.... sleepy......

today.

did u know....
i dont wanna study....
dont want to get anywhere...
this seems random....yes it is...dis is me.....dats it with the crap...

yes i did go for class..... one last freakin board left.... n me...i aint studyin:p
apart from that.... vikas is genuine.....
that reminds me i need to wish ankit.......
cuttin the crap short...... useless day..... nothin much except the studies.....
had relatives over for dinner......
as for me i cant figure out wts hpning...... is it goona continue dis way?
is it wurth it? shud i call it off.... or am i bein stupid..... as usual:P

sumtimes it abstract...but dats jst me:P
ciao...

I am tired

I'm so tired...
I'm really very tired...
Everyday is the same...
same hope that comes with the dawn
Same sadness that goes with the night
Same emotions that tear me up
Same wounds that will not heal
Same tears that won't dry up
Same heart that won't learn
from the past
In this merry-go-round of life...
I'm stuck.
Going forever and ever,
in circles never ending.
Sometimes it's fast,
sometimes it's slow,
sometimes it just stops completely.
But I can never get off...
When can I get off...
to go try,
perhaps, the ferris wheel?
Or the roller coaster...

welcome to my life.....

no on knows me here....
n da unknow takes hold of me...
i want to undo da past...
walk towards a new future...
i know.....
i know there is a path ahead.....
but do i want to trod on it?
is it worth it......?
am i what i seem.......
should i be what i seem...
or is it all like that?
dont know if u can figure me out...
dont know if i can turn things around...
i wish i could...
i wish things would...
i wish.....
is this about wishes.......?
or is it reality?
i dont know....